according to the department of health and sanitation, particularly dangerous for "new yorkers with weakened immune systems and elderly pregnant women." this lizzie quoted from the newspage. like myself, all those old knocked-up ladies better watch out. there was so much lightning and no thunder, so much and so little. kuhn's paradigm shift. even dong is broken up curled into little pieces of eggshell. krista and nick made their semi-official entrance tonight, as did jason and his second international scandanavian asian friend in three weeks. eileen was there holding her own, so-and-so losing court for awhile. e. said a. said s. said l. said there were rumblings of a revolution, or something. throughout i could not not think of little white bars of soap, smooth and rounded from the shoulders of various girls. the first time i washed myself at chris' house, the first time i knew him as having a house, a house in oakland with the new york times on the front door step everyday, i used the cetaphil soap. it was so serendipitous for me at the time, the discovery, in bar form, of that emulsifying agent which harbored various connotations of cleanliness and godliness and the notion that here was a person whose needs approached my own, whose skin was apparently as sensitive and delicate as mine own. nevermind that is was a leftover, a chunky remnant of some other skin, i didnt care. but time's a tricky little thing and i always remember the weird little gleams, the hollows which hold for me the utmost in meaning. there was a party tonight to celebrate a half-birth, and i swung and i swung back and forth on a pendulum over the pedestal over the cliff overlooking the valley of the birth of you and i. it always takes ridiculous chronological feats and terrible expansions in space before i can stand at the foot of the valley and look far, look back, look empty and full. these moments portend the tides' lowly trickle suddenly overwhelming into a wave. i am astonished and dumbfounded. i miss you too when you miss me but i love you always.